CarmellaLeigh

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fear of darkness by CarmellaLeigh, literature

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fear of darkness

When I was little, and waiting for sleep to take me, I would lie in my bed, the covers clenched tightly over my head. I would see horrible images of gore, that would make me want to cry. I told my mommy this, tears in my eyes. She told me to think of good things, happy things, not-so-dark things. So I did. When I would see angry faces and sharp claws, I would turn them into smiling maidens, and tender hands, that would hold me and keep me safe. As I grew, the fear waned, and I could go to sleep without conjuring thoughts of sunnier days. But it still remained. The fear still clenches me sometimes. The darkness gr

time to go by CarmellaLeigh, literature

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time to go

I love hearing the music clearly beating in my ears. The way it can block anything out, is almost magical. If I want to forget the world for a little while, the only tools I need is an MP3 player, and a pair of headphones. So simple. Such an easy conclusion to the end of worry, doubt, anger, fear, loneliness. Just close your eyes, play the music, and let yourself forget. Once, on a particularly terrible night, when all I could hear were screams echoing in my ears, I locked myself in the car. I put the keys in the ignition and played the radio. All the doors were locked, and I was happy to be alone. I cried over

my dear friend by CarmellaLeigh, literature

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my dear friend

How long has it been, since you were laid to rest my dear friend? Yet I still can not hold back the tears. I can not manage the pain. This tears look as if they come from my eyes, but they actually spring from my heart. My soul weeps for you. My throat tries to scream your name, but I have to hold it back. No matter where I am, the pain still quakes inside me. Like thunder it shakes me to tears. There are so many times a night that I lie awake, staring into the darkness. I blindly gaze at the picture of you and me, on one of your final days in this world. And I cry. I weep for the loss. I tremble with fear. I shake with

rest in peace amber by CarmellaLeigh, literature

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rest in peace amber

A tribute to murdered teen Amber Dubois As people passed you by, with a smile and a wave, you looked into their eyes and saw their souls. Whenever I would cry and forget who I was, you'd comfort me by looking into my eyes, so that I could see the spirit you saw in me. You loved everyone and everything, whether animal or human being, and always sought to protect them from harm. You had the power to make a weeping friend grin, with a single look, and the ability to drench a room with happiness with a single smile. You touched so many lives, leaving imprints in our hearts, making us aspire to love more generously. You always

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United States
Deviant for 15 years
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Current Residence: Black Forst, Germany
Favourite genre of music: almost anything
Favourite style of art: anything
MP3 player of choice: Philips
Wallpaper of choice: father anderson!!!
Skin of choice: purple
Personal Quote: insanity is my comeback

Favourite Movies

ace ventura 1 and 2 or pans labryinth or V 4 Vendetta

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

basshunter:)

Tools of the Trade

pencils and crayons :)

Other Interests

books, music, yaoi...drawing...yaoi...yaoi

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CarmellaLeigh

May 6, 2010

totally tooting my own horn

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i'm never this proud about myself, but i made this amazing video and well, it was totally EPIC! and it was about absolutism and the age of exploration to boot! i was so happy it made everyone laugh and my teacher thought it was so great. I only hope this success continues through the rest of the aspects my life :) I am sooooo happy right now...its kinda pathetic something so simple as a video can make me so happy when ive been so depressed lately...ah well...ill ride the high for as long it will carry me...and also my fortune said my "ideals are within reach"...hmmm what exactly ARE my ideals :P ......

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CarmellaLeigh

Jan 28, 2010

controversial survey

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[01] Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey? uhhhh..i bet its not THAT bad....O_o [02] Would you do meth if it was legalized? O_o....uhhh...no....??? i already do man! *Jamaican accent* haha jk [03] Abortion: for or against it? im pro choice because i believe women alone deserve to make the decision without the influence of people who dont understand their situation [04] Do you think the world would fail with a female president? nope...being a woman i am biased, but i also know that women seem to be a bit more reliable under stress...come on! we bleed for a week every month and have babie

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CarmellaLeigh

Jan 23, 2010

sick and tired of this crap

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....I'm tired of the way people around me...including myself....talk and think about themselves...Because of society, women and teenage girls are forced to hate their bodies (whether they're skinny, chunky, or what not) why should we have to care? I'm sick and tired of looking in the mirror and worrying about whether what I'm wearing will make other people think im fat....who cares? People have always told me that I'm beautiful...i never believed them .... because my vision of my body got in the way...I thought it was in the way of me finding a guy...i thought it kept me from making more friends or doing sports or joining clubs....but then i